Updates ||

Art block? Yes.
Motivation? No.
Inspiration? No.
Energy? No.
Time? No.
School work? Yes. Oh god yes.

I feel so terrible right now. I had trades that I NEED to do. If anything, it's probably those Trades that will end up pulling me out of art block. But how am I suppose to try and start drawing again when I don't even have time to pick up a pencil or tablet pen?

Who would have thought the last few weeks of this school term would be so hectic. 3 Assignments due this week. I've done...one of them. Thank god it's the one due tomorrow. Got one to do thats due on tuesday...Haven't even STARTED. Leave it to good ol' me to leave EVERYTHING to the last minute. Seriously. I need to be more organised.

So yes, I'm going to be off of deviantART for a little bit, maybe a while, I'm not sure. But I'll deff be on in 2 weeks, because that when the holidays start. Hopefully I'll have some art done by then.

Trash talk ||

I bought a new PSP with the leftovers of my birthday money a couple of days ago. It wa sin a special Final Fantasy: Dissidia exclusive deal thing. So I got it. Incase you haven't noticed, I'm a Final Fantasy obsessed maniac, so I couldn't stop myself from getting it. Dissidia is SO GOOD. I love it to bits. I love Terra, she's my favourite in Dissidia, well one of my favourites. Then of course, Cloud. Also Sephiroth, Zidane, Bartz, Squall & Kuja. I hate the Warrior of Light, he's SO GAY. I hate his attacks and everything. Ugh.

Oh and I love love love love love love LOVE Kefka!
Kefka = Epic win.
Seriously.
I loved him before but now he's just...ULTIMATE AWESOMESAUCE.

So, I'll probably be spending whatever spare time I get form school work playing Dissidia, unless I feel like drawing that is.

Oh and I feel selfish and whiney telling you guys this,
But I'm worried.
For my Dad, that is.
He doesn't usually worry me, but if you guys remember me telling you that he had some financial problems and stuff...That's whats worrying me now.
I tried calling him on Father's day (Night) because I'd bought him a Father's day gift from DL's but he hadn't come to see me or my nan so I couldn't give it to him.
When I called it said that his phone has been disconnected.
Of course, it could be nothing, he could have disconnected it himself but...
What if it was because he did pay the bill? Or...If he Couldn't.
I would've called his homephone but that got disconnected a while back because he didn't pay off the bill.
Now we don't have any way of contacting him.
My mum offered to take me and my nan over to his place but I told her that it would be a bad idea. Lyn (My dad's wife, My Step-mum) wouldn't like it, at all. If she knew my mum was living over here at my nan's...She'd never let Dad come here again.
My Dad is a grown man, but he's a pushover too. He does whatever she tells him to do because he doesn't like to argue. I know how he is.

It's making me sick just thinking about this.
BUT.
Don't worry, this isn't some kind of plea for comfort of attention, because I really hate it when people do that...trying to get the sympathy from others to satisfy themselves.
I just wanted to get it all out.
I don't think it worked though.
You know, the whole 'Telling someone will make you feel better'
or 'Let out your worries and frustration. You'll feel better afterwards.'
I feel nothing. No better, no worse.

Mushcakes ♥